22 May, 2015

First we eat, then we do everything else

I don’t know why, but not many people believe me when I told them that I eat a lot, like super a lot. I’m that kind of person who need to munch something while working or studying. It’s quite a troublesome on weekend or in public holiday, where all my maids are taking their day off. I know I can just cook, but you know on holiday or any lazy week days all you want to do is just sit, laid back and just watch TV with food on your hand (who’s with me?) especially when it’s raining outside. So, as a student (which about to enter exams stressful month), magazine columnist, creative director and another 10 jobs (mother from 3 fat cats is one them) I work almost 24/7, seriously….  sleeping is start to look like 8 hours of wasting time. Am I tired? Well of course, this body of mine isn’t made from steel (but my heart does though… hehehe) Am I happy? Absolutely. How do I keep myself happy? Good food is definitely one of the secret weapon, hehehe. 

That’s why I’m creating “Self indulging – I can eat anything I want to eat day” So, I use to have my indulgence day on Sunday (because of course I still work on Saturday). The problem is (also a blessing in disguise) on Sunday is also a day off day for my assistant and my maids. So, no one cooks, my sisters go with their dates and I’m of course too lazy to cook. And what’s the solution? HAIL TO DELIVERY SERVICE FOOD! Hahaha… I’ll wake up in the morning and the first thing I do is scrolling list of restaurant menu and I always, try to find the near one though, I don’t like to have my food all-soggy. Back in the old days, I have to do all tiring things like… Collect restaurant flyer menus, call the restaurant and what frustrating is when the price is sometimes changed, the menu changed and all that irritating stuff. But then the world evolve and most of restaurant have website now, so what I do browsing on the web, searching the phone number, calling them (it’s frustrating, because the line is always busy and I have to call and call again).  So my fellow hungry friend worry not, because I have found the perfect solution (I can’t help to feel a bit like Merlin the sorcerer now hahaha) recently I’ve made my delivery order through with this ordering food apps called Food Panda. So, it’s basically an apps to order food from your nearest area and you can browse all from your smartphone. To check it, you can just go to their website to see how the things work yourself in here Food Panda or  you can download the apps in here Food Panda Apps  .  So far I’m a very happy customer, now you’ll find me scheduling my indulgence day menu from lunch to dinner.  So yeah this girl who got question a lot about diet, is actually having burger for breakfast, tacos for lunch and chinese food for dinner. Hehehe. And here’s a bonus. Me and my burger king that I just ordered. Hehehe. 

16 April, 2015

Gift gift gift..... gift gift gift

Since I'm playing ask.fm there's some questions that I got a lot and do you know, one them is 
"My boyfriend will be having a birthday soon.... what do you think the best gift for him?"
"What gift should I give to my girlfriend? but please no mainstream gift"
"What best gift for my mom?"
 and so on and so on.... I mostly answered, it's your boyfriend/girlfriend/friend/father/mother you should know better than me ( a stranger in ask.fm) I mean, you are the one who spent times and know these person and you should know things they like the most, isn't logic?

It's not that I don't want to help, more than anything I'd love to help other people... but seriously I have no idea who the person is how on earth can I choose gift for them. I'm actually love picking gifts, it's a fun things to do, choosing something that will make your special someone happy, but again... I need to know that person personally. But, here's how I think I can help because, I think this can make your life ( well more your gift hunting) ten times easier.  I'm going to share about this website called www.kadokadi.com a cool online marketplace it's basically one stop shop for many kind of things that you can use for yourself or you can get as a gift, in here you can find start from cool greetings card to photo album and the coolest thing is all stuff are curated by www.kadokadi.com so all the stuff are  premium, unique and handmade gifts and yes to add the coolness all made in Indonesia ( Local brands rocks!). You can browse in the web all complete with price, so you can shop according to your budget.

This www.kadokadi.com comes very handy for me,  I have school five days a week and in weekend I have tons work to do, so it's stressed me out to spent times in the mall choosing gift from one store to another store ( hahaha I just got tired just by imaging it) Another great thing is, this website have easy payment method from bank transfer, credit cards, doku, mandiri e-wallet and more they have it all, all you have to do is choose, click and pay, done all done. Choosing gift in your pajamas is not impossible anymore, hehehe. And this is where it gets better, they also have apps, so you can even shop from your phone! me happy! And here's the direct link to download https://itunes.apple.com/id/app/kadokadi/id807324265?mt=8  yes, yes you're welcome ;) you can also follow their instagram if you want @kadokadi

By the way in this picture, I have my gift that I got from www.kadokadi.com a super super super (seriously) comfy pajamas and super cute panda pillow for my sleeping friend. And since I'm in good mood, here's I share some cool things that I found on the the web, hope it helps! And happy gift hunting guys!!!








20 March, 2015

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. ~ Pablo Neruda

So, I sat in the same spot, my favorite spot for years and years. Same spot, every 2nd Friday every month. The man who sat in front of me is also the same man. He's never changed, always nice with a very soft voice, so soft, I often have to say, "I'm sorry, what? Can you say it again please?" or I just say, "pardon?" and he will repeat what he just says. He must have thought I need to go see otolaryngologist or something, while I think he needs a mic or speaker. (I think that's why he was getting paid to listen) The smell of his office room also keep the same, scent of lavender (I once said to him to change it into vanilla because lavender makes me sleepy, he said he will, but he never do) I only noticed he changed his dust bin, it used to be small red dust bin and he changed it into white and bigger one. The same thing that never change is also the topic of our conversation, I've got to be honest it's been so dull and boring. He's probably thinking the same thing. Our routine opening speech is "so how's life Evita?" and my answer always "hmm ... same old same old ... nothing much." EPIC. He then will start asking questions about home, school, my grades, my work, my sisters, do I have hyperventilation in the past two weeks, panic attacks or how do I handle crowds? I always know the session is going to end when he finally asked "do you have anything else you like to tell me or ask me?" and I mostly answer the questions with "no ... everything is fine, I'm bloody hungry can we end this now?" and he will laugh like always. I love constant things and I'm a rigid routine person, but this is boring even for me. I know this is wrong, but my mind always wandering around when he talked to me. I am sometime imagining how he is outside this office, what kind of father he is, is he always this wise? God forbid I have psychologist father, I will never stand having father who will always try to read me like a card, scary as hell.

Perhaps it's so boring he decided to change the topic or this is might be just the time. This time he opens our conversation with "Well, look who will turn 16 this year!" with a louder voice, bigger smile and stronger handshake. I just smiled at him. He then asked me bunch of questions like, what's my plan for birthday/new year eve and all and he told me he was planning to go to church with his family and have dinner afterwards. I just answered "sounds awesome..."and I have this feeling he just trying to bait me from one question to another to ask this question "so 16 right? How's love life? Any boy? Or.... any girl?" I thought he's supposed to have poker face all time, I mean ... he must have been heard crazy things all the time, but I can find amusement in his face. Now, that's new. I laughed and asked him "what? Nooo ... do you ask.fm-ing me all this time too?" He looks confuse "no ...what is that?" it took me a while to decide to tell him or not "it's just this website where you can ask things ...well ... you don't want to know..." I'm trying to be as vogue as I can because he looks interested. "So do you ask or answered?" "answer mostly..." he now really looking excited "that sounds so great, tell me more, what kind of question?" Now I wish I could take my words back. "That's why I thought you're on ask.fm many question about boyfriend and things like ... do I like girls? And, stuff" Now I'm cursing myself and the fact that I have zero ability to lie "and if I may know, what is your answer?" I laughed because I know he will ask that "That ... I'm not into that kind of thing right now ... I'm so confused why people seem so obsessed with love, if you asked me ... love sound so much like a curse. I can't imagine myself thinking about one person all the time, a person that will have so much power in me, to make me happy and of course to hurt me, that sounds like absolute bollocks." He smiled then add "You say all this thing because you're never in love, when someone found the one, the universe will somehow look different Evita, you will think differently, you will surrender somehow. It's true that he or she will be your Achilles heel, but you will see there will be nothing you can do about it." "Like Superman and Kryptonite?" He smiled wider to my question "No, like Superman and Louis Lane" "Why Louis? Kryptonite is the one that can kill Superman" "Because for Louis, Superman doesn't care about kryptonite, he will do just about anything for her ... it's not Kryptonite, it's Louis." I laughed, see it's scary, love.

Just when I thought I escape from all of these awkward questions, he jab me with another question. "So really, no one?" I answered with hard nod "no one... that I'm sure of" He laughed again and ask more (well of course) "what do you mean? You need to tell me more..." I was thinking, there's no way I can escape this, he's too interested about my love life and my zero ability to lie isn't helping at all. "Well...There's this one guy... he's my neighbor's nephew, come here only for holiday. He's so quite and I like that about him, we only nod at each other every time we accidentally bumped to each other. I asked his name first when I was outside and he was taking his uncle's dalmatian for walk. You know when people told you that you will like guy who can give you comfort? or that some sort feeling? It's doesn't work like that for me, he feels like dark Japanese movie, so boring, slow, gloomy and quite, not many words and very minimal movement, but I like that about him. Story short we found out that we have similar taste on books, musics and movies. I love how he read books more than me, how we have different perspective on things, which is new to me, most of boys just always agree to whatever I'm saying. We debate about simple things like if "Lolita" word are found before or after Vladimir published his novel? Simple things like is Humbert Humbert love for Lolita is a sin or forbidden love? Is he a sick bastard or just poor old man? Things like that. We also shared things about our self, I found that his father is a professor, her mother is a housewife and her sister is temporarily stay in Indonesia for study and he come here to visit her sister. When he asked more about me, I asked him how long he will stay? he said only three weeks and then I shared all my deepest secrets because he will take it away back to his hometown and my secrets will be safe with him." I paused. You should see my Doc's face, he must be so confused because I talk so much. I take a sip of water. He told me to continue, so I did. "Week two... He called me Fuka Eri, -my very own Fuka Eri- that's how he called me, because he told me that it's like Murakami make that character based on me, funny because after that people keep telling me the same thing. He even asked me wear a long hair wig. One night, three days before he's leaving I told him, I think I like him..." I stop talking because I think that's all the story I need to tell, but my doc's so persistence and asked me to continue he so curious about his answer of course. "He just laughed at me, and messing up my hair... he told me... here's his words ~No you don't like me, you just like the idea of me, the idea of having boyfriend who will live thousand miles from you, so you don't have to deal with real romantic things, you don't have to deal with your friends nagging you to have boyfriend. If you really like me, you will cry right now asking me not to come home, but you are as cold as your true self to me. And don't you dare telling everybody that you have your broken heart because of me, because you are not, but I am, because I do like you and one day my Fuka Eri will be someone else's ~ Then I asked him, can I at least tell everybody about our story as my first summer fling and he said it's okay. I didn't go to the airport when he was leaving because I have school,  but the night before he's leaving he give me a note, he wrote --I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too-- It's a poem by Pablo Neruda, never knew about him before and now it's one of my favorite."  

Do you know what my doc's word? "wow" just wow said with a very low voice. He coughed a little and added "So do you like him?" I shake my head "I have no idea...Maybe he's right" he asked again "When he leave, are you sad? Or cry?" He takes his pen and paper, I hate it when he do that. "Sad, but no... I'm not crying"

He then give blablabla about I'm having a great progress and all that crap, if have summer fling a progress then when is the finish line? When I'm married? fantastic, just fantastic. He added "if one day you found the one, you should really come to me and tell me more about it..." I don't see why I should so... I asked why is that necessary, he answered "because in your case, once you found the one, you will most likely be extreme about it, you will show your feeling to your object of affection strongly and more noticeably than other people normally do, that's why I need to guide you, but don't worry this is normal for you." I laughed so hard because it sounds so stupid "Normal for me? But not normal for normal people? What do you think I will do? Stalking? build a worship table? Send creepy message -- If I can't have you, then nobody will -- " I swear from the look of his face he seriously think I might do that. "You may not go all there... but you might, well this is happen in many cases with people who have asperger... you will give him intense stare all the time, you also might keep calling him rapidly, which not really normal in our society... " If I'm a cartoon character you'll see my jaw drop to the floor, I can't believe he's serious. If you ask, do I worry about it? well I do, when you found out that you have high potential of being creepy stalker you'll understand.

He continue ( to torture me, hahaha) "So back to my first question... what's the answer?" I try to remember his first question, "what? how will I spend new year eve?" He shake his head and laugh "No.. I asked how's your love life? Is there's any?...."  of course I'm confuse, I just give him details of my so called love life. "I just told you..." He cut my words "No... No... I asked is it boy? or girl? What is your preference" Of course I ask things you all might have in your head "What? Why do you ask that?" He answered "Well because, as female with asperger there is some traits that you might have, and one of them is you may have many androgynous traits, even in feminine one which you are not, they most likely will think their self as half male or half female or you can say, you see yourself as well balance anima or animus. So looking the way you're dressed (I'm wearing ripped jeans + leather jacket) of course it's intrigued me to ask, I just want to let you know it's all normal for you. So what is it? your preference? Boys or girls? " Oh, he and his curious eyes. Well this is interesting... "Hahaha... this will be another long story, do I have enough hour to tell you?"

~ To be continue to another post, because right now I'm to sleepy to tell the rest of my story, plus I need to ask someone first is it okay to share our conversation, just want to make sure I'm not violating any confidentiality agreement or something, hahaha.







Jacket : Sheinside
T-shirt : Bershka
Pants : Zara 
Shoes : Jeffrey Campbell / Rococo

28 January, 2015

Poverty is the worst form of violence. ~ Mahatma Gandhi

I always believe that equality is impossible to achieve if poverty still exist.  Don't you?

When we are all just a kid our parents keep telling us, "help the poor" "do a good deed" "love people around you" "protect mother earth" etc....  right? It's just a word until at certain age, a thunder strikes and you suddenly starting to really think about people around you, it's even not just around you, you start thinking about those people who live in other side of the world,  start to really care about mother earth, about how to really help people and do something. You feel like the burden of the world is on your shoulder, my theory is because when you're older you will think less about yourself and start to think about other. There are some nights that I can't close my eyes thinking about there are kids my age or even younger, infants, thousand of them are hungry and cold while I'm sleeping in my comfy bed. Also it get my nerves thinking that those ice mountain across the world are melting, slow but sure even as we speak right now, too frightening to even think about it. What will happen with earth? those kind of questions sometime keep me awake all night.


I keep questioning things like, why there are people that have so many while there are more people who have nothing? News about new high technology in medical are everywhere, scientist found this and that but why there are so many kids died because of disease? even worse because of hunger. War is the worst, many died for no reasons. I guess human are just selfish by nature. What can I do to change this condition? Can I? I'm just a kid. Is it even possible ?

Our world is one of terrible contradictions. Plenty of food, but one billion people go hungry. Lavish lifestyles for a few, but poverty for too many others. Huge advances in medicine while mothers die every day in childbirth, and children die every day from drinking dirty water. Billions spent on weapons to kill people instead of keeping them safe.
~ Ban Ki-moon

Then I find the answer for my question, I can.... I actually can and so do you. I was jumping on the bandwagon immediately after I heard about this movement. It's called action/2015 and it's a movement to end poverty, inequality, and climate change. The campaign is comprised of hundreds of organizations around the world coming together to demand truly ambitious agreements on poverty, inequality and climate change in 2015. If you ask, why 2015 ? the answer is because at the end of 2015, two global summits will bend the course of history. One summit will result in a new global framework for humanity – to tackle poverty and inequality. The other will set new climate action targets – a crucial step towards a safer planet. Action/2015 is hoping to raise awareness of these issues so global leaders will make the right decisions at these summits.

If you want to join this movement, you can! I even wish you do join us, I believe the more people aware about this movement the chances for our leader to hear our voice will be higher.
To learn more about who we are? What are we doing? And why are we doing this? This is the list of action/2015 media social you can visit or follow to help you understand more about this movement.

Will leave you with action/2015 open letter to world leaders and really hope that all of you who read this post can share it around! 

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